Words have power but we throw them around so easily. What you say quite literally creates the version of the world that you live in.
So, in a world when you choose to refer to yourself as “gross”, “disgusting”, “lazy”, and worse, do you really think you are going to want to do the things that nourish your mind and body, and give fire to your soul?
More likely, that version of the world is going to look like shame, hatred, and a limit to what you think you deserve.
Sort your sh*t out, you glorious weirdo. The Universe has created a you-shaped gap that only you can fill for a reason. It can be patient but it won’t wait forever.